Is it out of compulsion? Not really. Most reasons are because I love the philosophy, but also because of certain fears.
Why I love doing it/ intrinsically want to do it-
1. Joy– Because I absolutely love the ideal of being truly, unconditionally and abundantly happy/joyful. I love feeling good! This is one of the core principles of Nichiren Buddhism.
2. Victory– Emerging victorious from all your challenges and struggles- winning each day and not having any defeats. I love victory, and I love seeing things transform from poison into medicine.
3. Personal growth– I love working on my weaknesses and changing for the better. The practice has a huge emphasis on reaching one’s highest potential.
Why I have to do it-
- Losses– For protection. I fear losses. I fear too much compromise and things not going my way.
- Self control– To not fall into negative behavioral patterns. I fear losing control over myself.
- My habit of worrying/staying in the past– I think too much about the past and future, hence need the practice to keep this habit of mine at bay.
- Overdoing things– Through activities like chanting and principles like taking the middle path, I can do things in a balanced way.
- Identity and consistency in life philosophy– I have been extremely inconsistent with my identity and life philosophy over the last few years, and I believe that this philosophy is what I truly believe in, hence giving me a consistent way to live by.